Wednesday, March 2, 2011

Too late

I finally figured out what i should have done. An hour late. Whenever it hit me, everything went numb. I couldn't hear anything. It was just me and my thoughts. This thought, of what I should have done. I felt like somebody had just punched me in the gut. I could kick myself for not thinking of it an hour earlier. So I sat there, mesmerized by this idea. And how if the situation ever arose again, I would certainly not think twice about it. When the situation first arose, I was a little surprised. It all happened so fast. I sat there in my silence, wondering what just happened. And I didn't feel bad about the decision I had made. Until an hour later when what I should have done finally came to me. What I should have done, was gone after her. Called her name from down the hallway, ran up to her and asked if she was alright. Given her a hug and offered to go with her. She would have thought so much more of me. So all this came to me an hour late. And now I hated myself for not thinking of it sooner. Too late. 

6 comments:

  1. deep stuff. i just saw this... hopefully you fixed it with her. haha

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  2. Haha well she's a tough cookie(; lol do you really not know who I'm talking about?

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  3. uhhhhhh i dont think so... what was it about?:D

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  4. Well it was that Wednesday. When Cody had said something to that one chick, and you got really mad and stormed out. And you went back to your house to get her. Well when it all happened, I was super confused and I didn't know what to do. But I really felt like I should have done something. Well about an hour later when P-Stevie was throwing it down, it hit me. Out of nowhere. What I should have done. And all of a sudden, everything else went numb. And it was just me and my thoughts. Of what I should have done. And you read the blog so you know what I should have done. But I just hated it, that I thought about it too late.

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